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The Cruelest Words
It happened about six weeks after my world had fractured.
I was navigating the strange, muffled landscape of early grief, a place where the colors are muted and the sounds are distant.
A well-meaning friend, seeing my listlessness, put a hand on my shoulder.
“You have to be strong,” they said, their voice full of earnest sympathy.
“Life goes on.”
The words were meant to be a life raft, but they landed like a stone.
A hot surge of anger, so potent it surprised me, rose in my chest.
It was followed by a wave of profound, chilling isolation.
In that moment, the chasm between their reality and mine felt impossibly wide.
My life hadn’t gone on.
My life had stopped.
The world kept spinning, its relentless momentum a personal insult, while I was stuck in the rubble of the moment everything changed.
This experience revealed a painful paradox.
The phrase “life goes on” is intended to offer the comfort of a universal truth—the unstoppable march of time—but what it often delivers is the quiet cruelty of a universal dismissal.1
It acknowledges the macro-reality that the sun will rise tomorrow, but it completely ignores the micro-reality that for the person grieving, their world has been plunged into an endless night.
It’s a statement of fact presented as a balm, which makes it feel like a judgment.
It suggests that your personal timeline is out of sync with the “correct” one, that your stillness is a problem to be fixed rather than a wound to be tended.
The great poet Robert Frost famously summarized his life’s wisdom in three words: “it goes on”.3
He was stating a profound, unassailable fact about existence.
But when we pluck this observation from the realm of poetry and try to use it as a bandage for a fresh wound, we miss the point entirely.
We turn a profound truth into a shallow platitude.
I knew there had to be a better Way. There had to be a way to honor the truth in Frost’s words without succumbing to the hollowness of the cliché.
There had to be a way to live in a world that keeps moving without feeling like you’re betraying the part of you that is forever frozen in the past.
This is the story of how I dismantled that hollow phrase and rebuilt it into a philosophy of resilience.
It’s a journey that taught me that the goal isn’t to pretend the breaks never happened.
The goal is to learn the art of golden repair, to make the cracks the most beautiful and valuable part of who you are.
Part I: The Landscape of Loss: Acknowledging the Shattering
Before any repair can begin, we must first have the courage to look at the pieces.
If you are in the throes of grief, if you feel broken, lost, confused, and overwhelmed, let me say this with absolute clarity: your feelings are not a sign of weakness.
They are a normal and natural response to an abnormal event.5
You are not failing at grieving; you are experiencing the full, chaotic, and painful spectrum of what it means to be human in the face of loss.
For decades, our culture has been offered a deceptively simple map for this territory: the so-called “five stages of grief”.5
We’ve been told we will proceed neatly from denial to anger, then to bargaining, depression, and finally, acceptance.
This model is appealing because it suggests a predictable, controllable process.8
But the truth, as confirmed by modern grief research and the lived experience of millions, is that grief is not a tidy, linear progression.
It is a wild, unpredictable storm.
It comes in waves that can knock you off your feet without warning, long after you thought the worst was over.
There is no set timetable, and there is no “right” way to do it.5
Freeing yourself from the tyranny of the five stages is the first step toward authentic healing.
The second step is to understand that grief is not merely an emotional state; it is a form of systemic shock to the human organism, akin to a major physical trauma.
To offer a simple cognitive platitude to someone in this state is like offering a kind thought to the victim of a car crash.
It fails because it addresses the wrong system.
The problem isn’t a lack of perspective; it’s a body and mind under acute, systemic duress.
The Systemic Crisis of Grief
Loss doesn’t just break your heart; it sends shockwaves through every system in your body and every corner of your life.
- Emotional and Mental Impact: The emotional landscape of grief is far more complex than just sadness. It is a disorienting vortex of feelings that can include anger (at yourself, at doctors, at God, at the person who left you), profound guilt (for things said or unsaid, or even for feeling moments of relief), and a gnawing fear that can escalate into full-blown anxiety and panic attacks.5 Many people experience a deep sense of confusion, a loss of identity, and an inability to concentrate or make even the simplest decisions.7 The future you had planned is gone, leaving a terrifying void and a sense of hopelessness.8 This experience is broadened by types of grief our society often fails to acknowledge, such as disenfranchised grief (the loss of a pet, a job, a friendship) or ambiguous loss (grieving a loved one who is physically present but psychologically gone, as with dementia).5
- Physical Manifestations: Your body keeps the score. Grief is not just in your head; it is in your bones. Research shows it can trigger a cascade of physical symptoms. It disrupts sleep patterns, alters stress hormones, and can even suppress the immune system.8 It’s common to experience debilitating fatigue, nausea, headaches, muscle aches, heart palpitations, and significant changes in appetite leading to weight loss or gain.5 Your body is in a state of high alert, burning through its reserves as it tries to process the trauma.
- Social Disruption: Grief is profoundly isolating. It can lead to social withdrawal, not because you don’t want connection, but because the effort feels monumental and you fear no one can truly understand.8 It can shatter your confidence and make you feel intensely self-conscious, as if your pain is a spotlight you can’t escape. Forging new relationships can feel like an impossible task when a part of you is still tethered to the past.8
For most people, the intensity of these reactions lessens over time, though the waves may never stop completely.
But for a significant minority, around 10% of bereaved individuals, the acute phase of grief doesn’t subside.
This is known as prolonged or complicated grief.
It’s characterized by a persistent, intense yearning for the deceased, a feeling that life is unbearable, intrusive thoughts, and a sense of hopelessness that severely impairs daily functioning.8
If this describes your experience, it is not a personal failing.
It is a recognized condition, and it is a sign that seeking professional help is a courageous act of self-care.
Part II: The Golden Epiphany: Discovering Kintsugi
In the depths of my own grief, I felt permanently damaged.
The world had shattered, and I had shattered with it.
I believed the best I could hope for was to glue the pieces of myself back together, hiding the cracks and pretending to be whole.
I thought resilience meant returning to my “old self,” the person I was before the break.
But that person was gone forever, and the pressure to resurrect her was exhausting and dishonest.
The turning point, my epiphany, didn’t come from a therapy session or a self-help book.
It came from a picture I stumbled upon online late one night: a simple ceramic bowl, beautifully and defiantly broken.
Its cracks weren’t hidden.
They were filled with seams of brilliant gold, radiating from the points of impact.
It was the first time I had ever seen something that was more beautiful for having been broken.
It was a piece of Kintsugi.
Kintsugi, which translates to “golden joinery,” is the centuries-old Japanese art of repairing broken pottery.9
The practice is believed to have originated in the 15th century when a Japanese shōgun, Ashikaga Yoshimasa, sent a favorite Chinese tea bowl back for repairs.
It was returned crudely stapled together with metal, prompting Japanese artisans to seek a more aesthetic method of mending.9
Their solution was transformative.
Instead of trying to disguise the damage, they developed a technique using precious
urushi lacquer mixed with powdered gold, silver, or platinum to meticulously rejoin the shards.9
This is more than a craft; it is a profound philosophy.
Kintsugi is the physical manifestation of the Japanese aesthetic of wabi-sabi, which finds beauty in the imperfect, the impermanent, and the incomplete.9
It is also linked to the concept of
mushin, or “no mind”—a state of acceptance of change and the flow of life.9
In a culture that often prizes perfection and symmetry, Kintsugi proposes a radical alternative: our history, including our breaks and repairs, is an integral part of our story.
The cracks are not something to be ashamed of; they are proof of life, evidence of survival.
In that moment, staring at that golden bowl, I found a new paradigm for healing.
This was the answer to the cruel simplicity of “life goes on.” The Western model of resilience often implies “bouncing back,” a return to an original, unbroken state.
But this is a fiction that sets us up for failure.
We can never be who we were before a profound loss.
Kintsugi offers a more honest and beautiful path: resilience as reinvention.
It suggests that true strength comes not from erasing trauma but from integrating it into a new, more complex, and more compassionate identity.
The break is not an event to be overcome and forgotten; it is a permanent and essential part of our history, the very place where the gold can enter.
The repaired Kintsugi bowl is not just restored; it is considered more resilient, more valuable, and more exquisite than it was before it was broken.12
This was my new mission.
Not to hide my scars, but to learn how to mend them with gold.
Part III: The Foundation of the Repair: The Stoic’s Resin
Kintsugi provides the beautiful, inspiring vision—the what.
But it doesn’t tell you how to steady a trembling hand long enough to pick up the shattered pieces.
It doesn’t tell you how to handle the overwhelming flood of pain, anger, and fear that makes any kind of repair feel impossible.
For the practical “how,” for the strong, clear lacquer that binds the fragments of the psyche together, I turned to the ancient and often misunderstood philosophy of Stoicism.
Stoicism is not about being an emotionless robot or “being strong” by suppressing pain.
That is a caricature.
At its core, Stoicism is a practical, life-affirming system for processing emotion through reason and focusing our energy only on what we can control.14
The Stoics were not strangers to grief; they saw it as an inevitable part of the human experience, a natural response to the losses that fortune will inevitably send our Way.16
Their wisdom provides the psychological engineering that makes the art of Kintsugi possible.
It is the invisible, structural resin that gives the visible, golden repair its strength and integrity.
Core Stoic Principles for Mending
- Accepting the Uncontrollable (Cleaning the Edges): The first step in any repair is to assess the damage without judgment. The Stoic philosopher Epictetus taught that the root of our suffering lies in confusing what is in our control with what is not.18 The loss itself—the death, the breakup, the illness—is outside of our control. No amount of rage, bargaining, or despair can change that fact. Wasting our energy fighting reality is what causes the deepest torment. Our power lies entirely in what we
can control: our thoughts, our judgments, and our responses to the event. This is the act of accepting the break. It doesn’t mean you have to like it. It means you stop wasting precious energy fighting a battle that is already over. This acceptance creates the mental space needed to begin the work of mending. - Facing, Not Fleeing (Applying the Resin): In a world of endless distraction, our first instinct is often to numb the pain. The Roman Stoic Seneca warned powerfully against this impulse. He argued that we must “conquer our grief rather than deceive it”.14 Distractions and pleasures only hinder the process; they are a temporary truce, not a cure. The grief that is merely pushed aside, he wrote, will return with even greater force. The only way to truly calm it forever is to face it with reason.14 This means setting aside time to sit with your pain, to allow the waves of sadness to wash over you without fighting them. It means looking at your grief directly, understanding its contours, and processing it rather than endlessly running from it. This is the slow, deliberate application of the resin that will hold the pieces together.
- Practicing Gratitude for the Past (Seeing the Whole Bowl): When a precious bowl shatters, our focus is entirely on the brokenness. We forget the years of beauty and service it provided. Seneca applies this same logic to loss. He asks, “Has it then all been for nothing that you have had such a friend?”.15 He urges us not to “bury friendship along with a friend.” The Stoic response is to consciously shift focus from what was taken to what was given. “The past is ours,” Seneca writes, “and there is nothing more secure for us than that which has been”.14 This is not a form of toxic positivity. It is a radical act of reclamation. It reframes memory from a source of fresh pain into a secure treasury of wealth. By practicing gratitude for the love and joy we
did have, we honor the person we lost far more than by dwelling only on their absence. - Memento Mori (Understanding Impermanence): The Stoics practiced memento mori—”remember you must die”—not to be morbid, but to be fully alive.14 By keeping the fragility and finitude of life in mind, they aimed to cherish the present moment and be less shocked by the inevitability of loss when it arrived. This practice builds a kind of ambient resilience. It helps us understand that breakage is a natural part of existence for all things, from pottery to people. It is the philosophical solvent that helps the resin of acceptance set, preparing us for the final, beautiful step of the repair.
Part IV: The First Signs of Life: The Pioneer’s Growth
Even with a new philosophy and a practical mindset, one question can remain paralyzing: “Where do I even start?” After a profound loss, the internal landscape can feel like a wasteland—a scorched, barren earth where nothing will ever grow again.
The idea of a future filled with joy and purpose—a “mature forest”—can seem so distant and impossible that it only deepens the despair.
Here, we can borrow a powerful metaphor not from philosophy, but from ecology.
When a forest is devastated by a severe fire, it looks like the end.
But it is not.
It is the beginning of a process called secondary succession, the natural, sequential recovery of an ecosystem.19
The key to secondary succession is that while the trees may be gone, the soil remains.
The nutrients, the history, the potential for life are still there, waiting.19
So it is with us.
Even after the most devastating loss, the soil of our identity—our memories, our core values, our capacity to love—remains.
The first heroes of this recovery are not the mighty oaks or towering pines.
They are the humble, hardy pioneer species.
These are the first organisms to colonize the barren ground: fireweed pushing up through the ash, resilient mosses, tough grasses, and certain types of ferns whose underground rhizomes were protected from the heat.19
These pioneers are not glamorous, but their role is absolutely critical.
They stabilize the fragile soil, prevent erosion, and begin the slow work of drawing up nutrients.
Their life and death enrich the soil, creating the micro-conditions that allow more complex life—shrubs, then fast-growing trees, and eventually a diverse, mature forest—to take root and thrive.20
This ecological process offers a liberating way to reframe the earliest, most difficult phase of healing.
It shifts the focus from achieving a final state (“I must be happy again”) to performing the immediate, possible action.
Healing is not a project to be managed from the top down; it is an emergent property that grows from the bottom up.
You don’t “decide” to become a forest.
You simply create the conditions for the first pioneer species to grow, and the forest emerges naturally over time.
What are our pioneer species? They are the smallest, most tentative steps we take back toward life.
- Getting out of bed when it feels impossible.
- Taking a shower.
- Answering a single text message from a friend.
- Stepping outside for five minutes of sunlight.
- Listening to one song.
- Making a cup of tea.
These actions can feel pathetic and insignificant in the face of monumental pain.
We judge ourselves for them.
But the ecological metaphor teaches us to see them differently.
These are not pathetic acts; they are heroic acts.
They are the essential work of stabilizing the soil of our psyche.
Each tiny effort is a blade of grass holding our world together, enriching the ground just enough for the next, slightly larger thing to grow.
By focusing only on the next pioneer action, we can sidestep the paralysis of the overwhelming end goal and allow our own healing to emerge, one brave, small step at a time.
Part V: The Artisan’s Toolkit: A Practical Guide to Golden Repair
Philosophy and metaphor provide the map, but we still have to do the work.
This section translates the three frameworks—the art of Kintsugi, the reason of Stoicism, and the patience of Ecology—into a practical toolkit.
This is the hands-on guide for the artisan of the self, a way to begin your own golden repair.
Each challenge presented by grief is a crack in the bowl; the mindset is the golden lacquer, and the practice is the artisan’s steady hand.
| The Challenge (The Crack) | The Kintsugi Mindset (The Gold) | The Actionable Practice (The Artisan’s Work) |
| Overwhelming Sadness & Despair | “This sorrow carves a space for future joy. My repair will be illuminated by what I learn in this darkness.” (Kahlil Gibran/Kintsugi Philosophy) 13 | The Stoic Sit-Down: Instead of distracting, schedule 10 minutes. Sit with the feeling. Name it (“This is despair,” “This is profound sadness”). Write down what triggered it. Then, following Seneca, write one thing from the past related to this loss for which you are deeply grateful. This acknowledges the pain while connecting to the secure wealth of the past.14 |
| Fear of the Future & Instability | “I am a pioneer species in a new landscape. My only job right now is to take root where I am. Growth will follow.” (Ecological Succession) 22 | The Pioneer Action: Identify one small, non-negotiable action for the day that requires minimal energy. This is not a goal; it’s a single step. Examples: Put one dish in the dishwasher. Walk to the end of the driveway and back. Read one paragraph of a book. Celebrate this as a pioneer species establishing itself.21 |
| Feeling Permanently Broken or Flawed | “My scars are not flaws; they are the golden seams of my history. They prove I have lived, loved, and survived.” (Kintsugi/Wabi-Sabi) 9 | The Kintsugi Narrative: Take a past hardship you’ve endured. In a journal, reframe the story. Don’t focus on the pain of the break, but on the “gold” that filled it. What strength did you discover? What wisdom did you gain? What compassion did you develop? This practice trains you to see the value in your repaired places.10 |
| Guilt Over Moments of Laughter or Joy | “The past is a secure possession. Honoring it with gratitude frees me to embrace the present. Joy is not a betrayal; it is a testament to the love that was.” (Stoic Philosophy) 14 | The Memory Treasury: Create a dedicated space (a physical box, a digital folder) to actively honor the good memories. When guilt arises after a moment of joy, consciously spend five minutes engaging with this treasury. Look at a photo, read an old letter, or recall a happy story. Give thanks for the joy that was, affirming that new joy does not erase it.14 |
| Loss of Identity & Purpose | “A disturbance doesn’t erase the soil. My core self remains. This is secondary succession, a chance to rebuild a more diverse and resilient ecosystem.” (Ecological Succession) 19 | The Core Value Anchor: List three to five of your core values (e.g., kindness, creativity, learning). Choose one pioneer action for the week that is a tiny expression of one value. Example: If you value kindness, send one text checking in on a friend. This reconnects you to the “soil” of your identity that remains intact. |
| Anger and Resentment | “This anger is a sign of deep love. I will accept its energy but use my reason to direct it, focusing only on what I can control: my response.” (Stoic Philosophy) 5 | The Control Sort: When anger surges, grab a piece of paper and draw a line down the middle. On the left, list everything about the situation you cannot control. On the right, list the one or two things you can control (e.g., “my breathing,” “how I speak to others,” “my next action”). Physically tear off the left side and throw it away. Focus only on the right. |
Conclusion: A Life Mended, More Beautiful Than Before
The journey through grief is not a path back to who you were, but a slow, painstaking process of becoming someone new.
For a long time, I saw my own loss as a permanent flaw, a jagged scar on my life that I had to hide.
But armed with the philosophy of Kintsugi, the pragmatism of the Stoics, and the patience of a forest, I began the work of golden repair.
My own success story is not a dramatic, movie-ending moment.
It is quiet and internal.
It happened one afternoon when I was telling a friend a story about the person I had lost.
In the middle of the memory, I started to laugh.
And for the first time, the laughter wasn’t followed by a stab of guilt.
Instead, I felt a warm sense of continuity.
I looked at that internal scar—the place where my life had broken—and I didn’t see an ugly flaw.
I saw a seam of gold.
It was a line of connection to my past, a testament to a love that was so strong its absence could shatter me, and a testament to my own capacity to mend.
That scar was no longer a symbol of what I had lost; it was a symbol of the person I had become.
This is the new meaning of “life goes on.”
It is not a command to forget.
It is not a dismissal of pain.
It is a quiet, profound acknowledgment of the world’s fundamental nature.
Life goes on in the forest after a fire, with pioneer species bravely pushing through the ash.
Life goes on in the Stoic’s mind, which finds gratitude and purpose even in the face of fortune’s cruelty.
Life goes on in the artisan’s workshop, where broken pieces are transformed into a masterpiece.
“Life goes on” is an invitation.
It is an invitation to participate in our own golden repair.
It is a call to become the artisan of our own healing, to pick up our own precious, shattered pieces, and to mend them with the gold of wisdom, self-compassion, and courage.
It is the promise that we can emerge from our breaking not just whole, but more resilient, more compassionate, and more breathtakingly beautiful than before.
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