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For years, I chased a ghost.
I’m a practitioner in my field, and for the longest time, I believed that a beautiful life was a perfect one.
I bought into the whole narrative: the relentless positivity, the curated feeds, the idea that happiness was a pristine, untouched porcelain vase.
I diligently followed all the standard advice, plastering on a smile and repeating the mantras.
When life threw its inevitable curveballs, I’d hear the echo of Marilyn Monroe’s words, “Keep smiling, because life’s a beautiful thing and there’s so much to smile about”.
I’d try to just “Relax! Life is beautiful!” as the saying goes.
But it was a lie.
A well-intentioned, beautifully packaged lie.
During a period of intense personal and professional struggle, these platitudes didn’t feel inspiring; they felt like an accusation.
The advice to simply choose happiness, because “life doesn’t change…
we can be miserable or we can be happy.
It’s what you make of your life”, became a source of profound shame.
When you are grieving, or failing, or lost, being told that life is beautiful and you just need to smile feels like being told your pain isn’t real.
It’s a hollow promise, and it led me to a place of deep inauthenticity and, eventually, a heartbreaking sense of failure.
I was trying to hold a flawless vase while it was cracking in my hands, and I blamed myself for the fractures.
The Hollow Promise of a Perfect Life
The core problem with this simplistic view of beauty is that it demands we deny half of our own existence.
It asks us to build a life on a foundation of denial.
The truth, as I was forced to learn, is that a life built only on the “good and beautiful” is a fragile one, destined to shatter.
The real texture of our existence is found in its contrasts.
As the writer Harlan Ellison so brilliantly put it, “if there were no opposite for beauty, or for pleasure, it would all turn to dust”.
Life is not a monologue of joy; it is a dialogue between light and shadow, success and failure, pleasure and pain.
It is, as one writer observed, both “good and bad, beautiful and ugly”.
This relentless pursuit of a flawless, unblemished life doesn’t just lead to disappointment; it actively creates a vicious cycle of shame and inadequacy.
When the inevitable reality of pain, failure, or loss intrudes upon this perfect picture, the framework of simple positivity offers no tools to cope.
Instead, it implies a personal failing.
The internal logic becomes corrosive: If life is supposed to be beautiful and I feel terrible, there must be something fundamentally wrong with me. This thinking forces you to wear a “Porcelain Mask”—smooth, perfect, and utterly fake.
The dissonance between the mask and your real experience becomes unbearable, leading not to resilience, but to a deeper, more isolating despair.
A philosophy of life that cannot account for suffering is not just incomplete; it is actively harmful.
It was from this place of brokenness that I began to search for a new way of seeing.
An Epiphany in Gold: Discovering the Kintsugi Way
At my lowest point, disillusioned with every self-help cliché, I stumbled upon an image that changed everything.
It was a ceramic bowl, beautifully fractured.
The cracks weren’t hidden or disguised; they were filled with gleaming gold, transformed into intricate, shimmering veins.
It was my first encounter with Kintsugi, and it was more than an art form—it was an answer.
Kintsugi, which translates to “golden joinery” (kin = gold, tsugi = join), is a centuries-old Japanese art of repairing broken pottery.
Its origins are traced back to the 15th-century shogun Ashikaga Yoshimasa.
When his favorite tea bowl broke, he sent it to China for repair, but it was returned crudely mended with ugly metal staples.
Displeased, the shogun challenged Japanese craftsmen to find a more elegant solution.
Their answer was Kintsugi: a method that uses a special lacquer mixed with powdered gold, silver, or platinum to mend the pieces.
The philosophy was revolutionary.
Instead of hiding the damage, Kintsugi celebrates it, making the cracks an integral part of the object’s history and beauty.
This art form is born from the Japanese philosophy of wabi-sabi, which finds beauty in imperfection, appreciates simplicity, and accepts the transient nature of all things.
A Kintsugi bowl is considered more beautiful and valuable after it has been broken and repaired.
The break is not the end of its story; it is the beginning of a new, more profound chapter.
What struck me so deeply was that Kintsugi is not just an isolated Japanese aesthetic; it is a tangible manifestation of a universal human truth about resilience.
It provides a common language for a concept that thinkers and spiritual traditions have grappled with for millennia.
Ernest Hemingway wrote, “The world breaks everyone and afterward many are strong at the broken places,” a sentiment echoed in the philosophy of Kintsugi.
The existentialist Albert Camus spoke of finding an “invincible summer” in the midst of winter.
Even Christian theology contains this idea, describing humanity as having a divine “treasure in jars of clay…
afflicted in every way, but not crushed…
so that the life of Jesus may also be manifested in our bodies”.
The fragile, broken, and gloriously mended “jar of clay” is the Kintsugi bowl.
Kintsugi, then, is a Japanese masterclass on a universal human theme, giving a beautiful, concrete form to the abstract philosophies of resilience from around the world.
Two Philosophies of a Beautiful Life
| Feature | The “Porcelain Mask” Model (Conventional Positivity) | The “Golden Repair” Model (Kintsugi Philosophy) |
| View of Hardship | An anomaly to be avoided, denied, or quickly overcome. A sign of failure. | An inevitable and integral part of life’s story. An opportunity for growth. |
| Approach to Flaws | Defects to be hidden, fixed, or airbrushed away. A source of shame. | Marks of uniqueness and history to be honored and even highlighted. A source of beauty and character. |
| Source of Beauty | Perfection, symmetry, flawlessness, and the absence of scars. | Resilience, the story of survival, the visible history of mending, and authenticity. |
| Goal of Life | To maintain a pristine, unbroken state. To achieve constant happiness. | To live fully, embrace the entire journey, and become stronger and more beautiful at the broken places. |
| Metaphor | A perfect, untouched porcelain vase. | A Kintsugi bowl, its value and beauty enhanced by its golden scars. |
Rebuilding with Gold: A New Framework for Seeing Beauty
Armed with this new paradigm, I began to rebuild my understanding of a beautiful life from the ground up.
I didn’t need to avoid the cracks; I needed to learn how to mend them with gold.
This process became my personal framework, built on three core pillars.
Pillar 1: Honoring the Cracks – The Beauty of Our Imperfections
The first step was to completely reframe my relationship with my own flaws.
The Kintsugi philosophy teaches that our “cracks”—our failures, vulnerabilities, scars, and quirks—are not shameful defects.
They are the very things that give us character, depth, and humanity.
This idea is captured perfectly in Leonard Cohen’s iconic lyric: “There is a crack in everything, that’s how the light gets in”.
This is a radical departure from a culture that worships perfection.
Researcher Brené Brown reminds us that our imperfections are not inadequacies; they are “reminders that we’re all in this together” and that we are worthy of love and belonging just as we are.
The physicist Stephen Hawking noted that, on a cosmic scale, “Without imperfection, neither you nor I would exist”.
This perspective is echoed across centuries of wisdom.
Confucius compared a person to “a diamond with a flaw,” which is worth more than a pebble without imperfections.
Alice Walker saw it in nature, observing that trees can be “contorted, bent in weird ways, and they’re still beautiful”.
This pillar fundamentally redefines the concept of value.
In our modern, consumerist society, “damaged” means “discounted.” Kintsugi proposes the exact opposite: damage, when mindfully mended, increases value.
The history of the break and the beauty of the repair add a new layer of meaning that makes the object more precious.
When we apply this to ourselves, our scars are no longer deficits.
They are proof of our journey.
This validates what psychiatrist Elisabeth Kübler-Ross observed: “The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths”.
Their profound beauty comes not from an absence of cracks, but from the golden way in which they have been mended.
Pillar 2: The Golden Lacquer – Finding Strength in the Mending
The second pillar focuses on the process of healing.
The “golden lacquer” is a metaphor for the active resources we use to put ourselves back together.
This is not about passively waiting for time to heal all wounds.
It is about the deliberate, often difficult work of mending.
Healing, like excellence, is not a single act but a habit, a practice we cultivate day by day.
The resources for our golden lacquer are varied and deeply personal.
They include the wisdom we gain from introspection, the self-compassion we learn to offer ourselves, the support of our community, and the meaning we forge from our suffering.
The transformative power of this process is the core of resilience.
It’s the realization that, as Drew Barrymore said, “some of your greatest pains become your greatest strengths”.
A Kintsugi bowl is said to be even stronger at the mended places, a perfect metaphor for how we can emerge from adversity with newfound fortitude.
This active search for meaning is a central tenet of many philosophies.
Viktor Frankl, a Holocaust survivor and psychiatrist, taught that our ultimate freedom is “to choose one’s attitude in any given set of circumstances”.
Friedrich Nietzsche argued that to survive is “to find some meaning in the suffering”.
And often, that meaning is found in connection.
Love and friendship are powerful binding agents in our golden lacquer.
The simple statement from a friend, “You have been my friend…
That in itself is a tremendous thing,” can be the very thing that holds us together.
As Lao Tzu wrote, “Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage”.
Pillar 3: The Mended Masterpiece – Appreciating the Whole Story
The final pillar is the celebration of the integrated self.
A life that has been broken and mended is not a lesser life; it is a masterpiece with a richer, more compelling story.
This new perspective allows for a deeper, more authentic appreciation of life as it truly Is.
This is where we learn to live with what the philosopher Søren Kierkegaard described: that life “must be lived forward, but it can only be understood backwards”.
We look back at our gilded scars not with regret, but with the wisdom that comes from having connected the dots.
We can finally embrace the call of the poet Rumi to “Unfold your own myth” and the wisdom of the Zen master Thich Nhat Hanh: “To be beautiful means to be yourself.
You don’t need to be accepted by others.
You need to accept yourself”.
This perspective radically shifts our sense of gratitude.
Having faced and mended significant breaks, we develop a profound appreciation for the present moment and the simple, often overlooked details of existence.
We begin to understand what Robert Brault meant when he said, “Enjoy the little things, for one day you may look back and realize they were the big things”.
We learn to savor the feeling of grass between our toes, the gift of fresh air, the comfort of a deep conversation.
This is not a forced positivity but a genuine gratitude born from understanding the fragility and preciousness of it all.
Living a Kintsugi Life: A Conclusion
Not long ago, I faced a new professional setback that, in my “porcelain” days, would have shattered me.
The old script of shame and failure began to play in my head.
But this time, I had a new tool.
Instead of hiding the crack, I acknowledged it.
I shared my vulnerability with trusted colleagues—my golden lacquer of community.
I reflected on what the failure could teach me—my golden lacquer of wisdom.
I didn’t pretend it didn’t hurt, but I focused on mending rather than masking.
The outcome was not a seamless recovery, but something far better: a stronger professional relationship built on authenticity and a more resilient approach to my work.
I had created a gilded scar.
This is the truth I wish I had known all those years ago.
The affirmation “life is beautiful” is not a denial of darkness, but a profound celebration of our ability to mend with gold.
True, enduring beauty is not found in a life without cracks.
It is found in the resilience, compassion, and wisdom etched into our scars.
It is in the story they tell—a story of survival, of healing, and of the incredible strength found not in being perfect, but in becoming whole.
It is in this spirit that we can look upon the world, with all its breaks and all its beauty, and agree with Hemingway: it “is a fine place, and worth fighting for”.
